Jordan's Lung Surgery

Jordan's surgery has been scheduled for December 3, 2010.  I am not looking forward to this day and I am sure she isn't either.  I know the surgery is going to be tough and the recovery even tougher, but I also know that Jordan can handle it.  She's been a real trooper throughout all of this and she just wants to get rid of the cancer.  The best way to do that is to go in and remove it.  She understands exactly what is going to happen.  She has had a long conversation with the doctor about the procedure and she knows what to expect.  I am hoping she is feeling better before Christmas and I'm really hoping that everyone is there tomorrow to celebrate Thanksgiving with her.  I am so thankful that my beautiful neice is alive.  I can't imagine what a different story this would be if we were just finding out now that the cancer was there.  I will never forget the moment Rustie called to tell me that she had been diagnosed with Osteosarcoma.  It was one of the worst moments of my life...maybe the absolute worst.  My heart breaks everytime I think about all of the pain that Jordan has endured.  I know that it has made her a stronger person, but that's such small compensation for the difficulty of her life.  The girls and I found several boxes of old pictures when we cleaned out the shed.  I think they were a little surprised at all of the pictures of Jo, but it became more obvious as we went through them that she has been a part of my life for a lot longer than they have.  She became my baby the day I found out her Mom was pregnant with her.  "If I Die Young" is moving up the charts this month and everytime it comes on the radio, I have to change the station.  I can't bear to listen to the words of that song.  Jordan posted it to her profile on Facebook this week and I cried for an hour after I saw it.  I know that she is going to survive this, but the thought that anything could happen is too much to bear...especially knowing that she feels it too.  And so we pray....