Monday, July 13, 2009

I love you....

I am feeling very nervous tonight. The first prenatal is in 13 hours. I know that once I hear the baby's heartbeat, this pregnancy will be completely real. I keep thinking about the past. About dancing with Peyton at the pub and eating at the Waffle House at 4am. I'll never forget the night we got the moving truck stuck between the fence and a tree over at Jonesboro High School. I laughed until I cried. Just before Thanksgiving in 2000, we bundled up in the back of the truck. We were snuggled up in moving blankets and coats. It was freezing. Peyton pulled me close and whispered very quietly, "I love you." I didn't react at all. I knew him well enough to know that he thought I was sleeping. A few days later, I said "I love you." He gave me so much grief about it that I reminded him that he said it first. He denied ever saying it. It was a month before he said it again. I had no idea the floodgate of emotions that would come when he was really ready to tell me how he felt. Again, I laughed and I cried. I think that was one of the happiest nights of my life. It was the day after Christmas.

A few weeks before, I tried to get Peyton excited about the upcoming holiday, but he had sworn off celebrating Christmas. I think he was spending too much time with Josh and it was rubbing off on him. Jessi Leigh and I broke into Sir Galahad, literally. We popped the lock on the front window while he was out. Thank goodness the alarm wasn't set. (I would learn years later that David Pooley watched me break into the house...twice. He said he figured I was spending enough time there that whatever I was up to, Peyton deserved it...so he didn't call the cops.) We were on a mission. We would bring Christmas to Peyton. Peyton came home from work and found this bright little tree sitting in the center of his pool table. We still put this tree up every single year. What a magical time for us.

....but nothing could be more magical than hearing our baby's heart beat for the first time. I can't wait to tell you I love you, little one.

1 comment:

Jessica Leigh said...

HAHA!! Glad he did not call the cops:) That was an awesome time! I love & miss you guys!!!!